UPDATE – Fully Alive at Five Holiday Schedule

Fully Alive at Five is done for the year. There will be no more Fully Alive at Five Tuesday morning meetings until the new year, HOWEVER don’t miss the Fully Alive Finale on Sunday December 10th! More details will be coming soon about the finale party but be sure to mark your calendars.

Once again we have seen the faithfulness of the Lord as He met us at this semester of Fully Alive. What a joy it was to come to together and sing praises to Jesus for what He has done to purchase our salvation! We pray that your soul has been encountered this semester on Tuesday mornings and we hope that your lives are marked by Christ in a whole new way during this holiday season. We will let you know what the schedule for next year looks like but just know that we are looking forward to seeing everyone again in 2015!

Fully Alive 2014: Kickoff Recap!

David said it best: “Blessed is the one you choose and bring near…we will be satisfied with the goodness of your house!” Psalm 65:4.

Last night at the Alive at Five Fall Launch, we were brought near to the throne and were satisfied by His presence with us! I am filled with awe and expectation as I look  forward to Tuesday morning at 5 am with you faithful gals…and Jesus!  Be there! –Kathy

Kathy’s message from the Fall Kickoff is now online. Click here and to download or stream the audio file below:


Fully Alive 2014 Kickoff!

I am sure your summer has been full of lots of friendship, family activity, traveling, work and fun!  Fall is a season for reaping and renewal!  I am trusting the Holy Spirit to do just that in our hearts as we launch another semester of Alive at Five on Sunday night, Sept. 21, at 7 pm!
Yes, we will launch our Fall Kick-Off with an evening edition of Alive at Five by hosting a City-wide Worship Celebration! This will be a time for seeing and savoring Jesus Christ!  He promises to meet with us as we gather!  When He is in the room with us there is fullness of joy!  So, if you are hungry to know divine joy, the kind of soul-satisfying delight that only comes with he presence and pleasure of God, then bring and friend and join us!
Here are the details for the Kick-Off  Celebration service and for the resuming Tuesday, 5 am, morning schedule, beginning on September 23, at 5am.
Here are the details:
When: Sunday, Sept. 21st
Time: 7pm 
Location: Christ Church Knoxville – NEW LOCATION
Below are the dates for this semester but as always, make sure you follow us on our NEW Fully Alive Ministry Facebook page or on the Fully Alive blog in order to easily receive any schedule changes due to weather, etc as well as other announcements, updates, testimonies and resources.
Fall 2014 Schedule:
Kick-Off Celebration Service:
– Sept 21
Tuesday 5AM Meetings: 
– Sept 23rdOct 7thOct 21stNov 4thNov 18th
End of Semester Celebration Service:
– Dec 2

Perspectives from Uganda: Abby

We have been posting testimonies from different team members who were on the Uganda mission trip several weeks ago featuring their personal experiences from this time of ministry. These posts will be here on the Fully Alive Website for Abby and Lauren, since they focused on the women’s ministry, and on the Christ Church Website for the men who served on the trip as well.

Here is Abby’s testimony from her time with the team in Uganda:

Sitting on the plane flying from Amsterdam to Uganda, my first journal entry read: “We are on our way to Uganda. We’ve already encountered quite a few obstacles—Aunt Kathy’s passport wasn’t up to par with regulations and she had to stay behind, we almost missed our connecting flight to Amsterdam, and my tickets weren’t booked appropriately which meant I had difficulty at every gate-one thing after another. Praising You that no weapon formed against us will prosper… we believe that this is a sign of the effective work You are going to accomplish as we go for the sake of Your name and the gospel”. At Our last meeting before the trip, we had all confessed our great need for God to supply what He would have us give to the Ugandan Church. Even as we met obstacles, we knew that it was Him who provides what we need to fulfill the task for which He calls us. All we could do was trust Him.

Kathy Tarr, known to me as “Aunt Kathy”, had planned to host sessions for the pastor’s wives and other female Christian leaders in the area while the men in our group hosted a pastor’s conference. And here we were on a plane without her. I had been asked to come prepared to lead the women in worship, but I was not prepared to lead anything beyond worship. As soon as I found out that Aunt Kathy could not join us, I began to ask God to make me a willing vessel if He would see fit to speak His Word through me to these women. I was aware that I would be much younger than most of these women, they had endured hardship that I could not even begin to imagine, they were mothers and wives, and ultimately, their lives were very different from mine. But what I kept being reminded of from Isaiah 55:11 is that His Word never returns to Him empty but accomplishes His purpose and will succeed in the thing for which He sends it. His Word is a sure foundation. This very truth was what my brothers, Nathan, Mark, and Nick were teaching on the day leading up to the women’s session.

So, strengthened by the Word of God from the mouth of our brothers, Lauren and I stood before the women and began to share about the love that God demonstrates to women throughout His precious Word, specifically focusing on John 4. We read Psalm 139 and reminded them that just as He knew the Samaritan woman in John 4, so He knows each of us. “You know when I sit down and when I rise up…You hem me in, behind and before, and lay Your hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me…” (Ps. 139:2, 5, 6a). As I looked out over the women, and spoke, I prayed silently that He would be faithful to encourage them with His Word coming out of this very weak vessel. After we finished, we had some time for the women to ask questions or comment. And we were humbled as woman after woman stood up and thanked us for coming all the way from the U.S. to bring them the Word of God. One of them said “we trust that if God brought you from the U.S. to Uganda to speak to us, then He has something to say”. They didn’t care that we were young, single, American and etc. They knew that we shared a common hope, which is Christ, and they wanted to share in the deposit He had given to us. I walked away awed by God and encouraged by these precious sisters.

Fully Alive sisters, we have sisters and mothers in the faith who are fully alive in Uganda. Pray for them. The obstacles they face are different than ours, but they are pressing into Jesus and His word. They don’t have easy lives by our American standards, but they worship and pray with exuberance. Even as Lauren and I were able to bless and encourage the Ugandan women, we left deeply blessed and encouraged. We were challenged to grow in our love for His Word, prayer, fasting and come into His presence in worship with great joy. He is worthy!

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Reclaiming God’s Design for Marriage

Years ago Kathy Tarr spoke at a marriage seminar for couples. The seminar was focusing on God’s eternal plans for husbands and wives. This was a rich time of teaching and worshipping in and through the Word of God. God has a very clear calling on the lives of men and women who get married and we want to follow that vision to glorify His great name!

For the longest time these teachings have been tucked away on CDs that were dispersed to the attendees of that conference. Fully Alive Ministries is happy to provide the audio files from these sessions online for the first time! We hope that you will benefit from these teaching sessions as you seek to please God in your marriages. Be sure to share the links with friends and family as well!

You can listen or download the messages in MP3 format by clicking below or going to the Fully Alive resources page.

I"God's Beautiful Design"Kathy TarrClick here to listen
II"What Happened to Paradise"Kathy TarrClick here to listen
III"Restoring Oneness - Part 1"Kathy TarrClick here to listen
IV"Restoring Oneness - Part 2"Kathy TarrClick here to listen


Reminder About Fully Alive Retreat

ATTENTION LADIES!!! This is a quick update regarding registration for the retreat upcoming this Saturday, April 12th. You now have until 7pm tomorrow evening to sign up at the $30 discounted rate. We are so looking forward to this sweet time together in the satisfying presence of Jesus! Hurry up and register by clicking here so that you can save your extra $5 for a treat on the road.

Also, please let us know if finances are prohibiting you from attending. We want to make sure that all who desire to be there can be there. You can simply contact the retreat admin team will confidentially work with you to make a way for you to attend.

Don’t forget to let us know if you desire to participate in the caravan when you register. Later this week we will be sending out directions and caravan information to all who have registered, along with any other details you might need for the day.

What a privilege it is to be able to meet together in the presence of our sweet Savior in the splendor of God’s magnificent creation. We pray that your hearts are stirred with anticipation and longing for this time! We can’t wait to see you there!


The Fully Alive Ministry Team

The Fully Alive at Five Spring Retreat!


These past two semester’s God has given us a taste of finding our soul’s deepest delight in Jesus Christ!  Many of you have testified of your joy in encountering the LORD’s presence and experiencing His faithfulness and all-sufficiency in life-changing ways!  Praise the LORD; He has done great things for us!  I can say that my mind and my emotions have been shaped by our study in the Psalms!  Although our summer break is fast approaching, I am praying that you will continue to pursue Christ in the study of His Word, fervent in prayer, boiling hot in spirit and steadfast in service!

Meanwhile, we have our last city-wide gathering of Alive at Five this coming Tuesday, March 25 at 5:00 am at Christ Church of Knoxville.  Once again, Gals, win the blanket victory and rally all your warrior-women friends who are hungry for God and join us!  We will be waiting for you at the door with a hug and cup of coffee!

Finally, I want to personally invite you to join me in spending a day retreat with Jesus for spiritual refreshment, restoration and meditation!  The Fully Alive Spring Fling will be held at our family Lodge near Crossville, TN. Here is a preview:

Think about the delight  of being in the presence of God all day long!  You will be completely surrounded by our Creator’s majesty through the sights and sounds of wide open fields, bubbling creeks, waterfalls, walking trails, and gorgeous mountain ridges.  We will spend the morning together in worship and the Word, followed by a delicious lunch and several hours for you to be alone with Jesus.  You will need your Bible, your journal and/or your art medium. The day of prayer-filled worship and meditation will end with a time of sharing, testimony and ministering to one another in prayer.

Click here for the Spring Fling webpage for all the details and registration!

Declaring War on Shame

Hey Friend,
Every woman you know has it!  It’s an epidemic!  You and I, along with every other person alive has experienced the crippling effect of this emotion on our souls.  Trust me, it is a vicious grinch that, unless exposed and overthrown by the Holy Spirit of God will steal your joy, erode your courage and weaken your faith! I am talking about the powerful emotion of shame.
According to the Bible, shame is more prevalent and more powerful than you know.  Likewise, according to the Bible, our culture is confused and misguided as to the its true identity and remedy.
Tomorrow morning, at Alive at Five, we will learn from Psalm 25 how we can escape from the shackles of shame! So, rise and shine, bring a friend, grab your coffee at the door come ready to worship Jesus, our Freedom Fighter from the Shackles of Shame!
If you are feeling bold today, pass this email along to some friends!
Love you Gals!
What: Fully Alive at Five
When: Tuesday, February 4, 2014 starting at 5a.m.-7a.m.
Where: Christ Church Knoxville
3108 Basswood Rd
Knoxville, TN  37921

Dancing in Worship and War

DSC_0061“Let them praise His name with dancing”  Psalm 149:3

When we are in excruciating circumstances and at our wit’s end, Jesus, our greatest Treasure, is still worthy of our whole-hearted worship.  Andthe rejoicing of genuine, whole-hearted worship is the sustaining strength of our hearts in the midst of the battle.  These are the dual lessons we have been learning in the book of Psalms.  The following two testimonies, from Alive at Five this morning, thrill my heart!  You gals are living proof that He is alive!  The more trials we face, the more boldly we run to Jesus, joyfully declaring our hope in His Word!  The more we cling to Him, the more we grow in the joy of knowing Jesus as our greatest Treasure!  I love His perfect ways!


As Devon spoke on the last morning of our fall Fully Alive at Five meeting, my heart was bursting to the point that I had to exercise restraint in not shouting or jumping up to dance right then and there. I also couldn’t stop the tears that were flowing down my face.

We were learning that dance is a key to spiritual warfare.  We saw in the Bible that dance is an appropriate response of praise to God. He is worthy of receiving worship with every fiber of my being.  Even in my weakest moments; in times of sadness, or when I don’t “feel like it,” God is moved by my offering of whole-hearted worship.  This is my testimony.

You see, a few years ago, God allowed some painful circumstances in my life.  It was very hard.  Although, at first, I did not understand, He was awakening my heart in love for Him in a new way.  He was removing false comforts.  He was making me desperate for an encounter with Christ!

I had allowed depression to become a way of life.  This deep pit was the hiding place where I was held captive for years, unable to express my deepest pain, unable to express my heart to God.  Depression often turned to despair.  It was during this desperate season that Jesus reached down into my pit of despair and loosed my chains by teaching me to dance before Him!

Opening the Word of God and declaring God’s love and His promises with my heart, with my mouth and with my feet set me free. Set me free!  I am free to worship the Lord Jesus with everything I have, no matter who may see, simply because He is worthy, and He has shown me His worth. Oh, my testimony is that I cannot keep from dancing anymore!   I now have many testimonies of how Jesus has transformed my heart in the midst of difficult circumstances, as I have danced before Him with His Word on my lips.

I am not a trained dancer, nor am I the most graceful. But I know that it moves the heart of my God,  when I dance.  I also know that He meets me when I dance. I am changed.  My heart is aligned with His Word, and He takes His rightful, preeminent place in my heart. I can say along with David, “You turned my mourning into dancing, you have loosed my sackcloth and clothed me with gladness” (Psalm 30:11).

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I listened to Kathy speak of the battlefield of life, the invisible war…and I know. Oh, I know!  I remember how just the night before, my heart had been thrown against the wall, breathless, anger rising from the huddled heap on the floor. I remember how I felt powerless against the Enemy’s lies. I had awakened this morning at 4 am to attend Alive at Five.  I doubted that my battered heart, full of hardened ancient stone, would even respond to the Jesus whom I love in my spirit.  I wondered if I had let myself go too deep back into despair and confusion.  Then the Sword found its mark, splitting marrow and bone and I could see!

For though we walk in the flesh, we are NOT waging war according to the flesh. For the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh but have divine power to DESTROY strongholds. We DESTROY arguments and every lofty opinion raised against the knowledge of God, and take every though captive to obey Christ. (2 Corinthians 10:4-5).

The yearning of my heart to please Him began to surface—true reality shining through my dim eyes. When Devon spoke, I saw who I really am, really.  I am royalty in the court of the Living GOD, beauty desired and seen by Him and led to His chambers in robes interwoven with gold.  What JOY and GLADNESS!  I entered the palace of the Fairest One, Majestic in Righteousness, Valiant for the cause of Truth and Goodness. I could see once more, and oh, how quick I am to forget! Instead of praise so often shame surrounds me, a dirty cloak.

“Precious are you in My eyes, and honored, and I Love you with an everlasting Love.”

This is the voice of my Beloved!  How could I not know? Does He not cherish me every day, and still I look to the perceptions of man for my acceptance, bound by worthless shackles of my own choosing, and passed over by everyone but Him. How could I not choose Him?  I made my choice.

I had learned from the Psalms to lift up my voice and cry out to God in prayer.  I had learned to worship Him with singing and dancing. This morning, I became impatient to try out these tiny wing-buds.  I was eager to express what the Spirit in Grace had revealed!  YAHWEH is the Holy One of Israel, Everlasting King and Intimate Lover of my heart—I felt the fire within and the words tickling my lips. I had the urge to SHOUT: “RISE UP FOR ME, O GOD!” I wanted to cry out to Him in faith.  And then, I did!  I cried out from the darkness that held me and I rose up in faith!  I moved toward the back of the sanctuary as we began to sing.



You make all things new!

All things new!

 And then, I twirled. I twirled and twirled and twirled!  My arms moved and my heart moved and my feet left the ground as I danced with my all my might in the house of the LORD my King!  His beautiful one seeking after His Beauty. . . I could see, and I was seen and something in me is was made whole.

I am free.  And He has made me glad!

Fully Alive at Five Info:

When: Every other Tuesday morning starting new semester on  January 7th. See full calendar here.

Time: 5:00a.m.- 7:00a.m.

Where: Christ Church of Knoxville (Click here for a map)

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*photo credit: Talitha Piper

He Answers When We Call


The Lord who lives and gives great victories met with us Tuesday morning at Alive at Five!  I can’t remember a season in ministry when my heart has been more joyful over the activity of God in the midst of His people!  He is putting His enemies to flight and showing the saving might of His right hand among His people! I praise Him for the testimonies of His glory on display in your lives!  Ashley Baker shared the following testimony with me. I asked her permission to share it with you. He will answer us when we call!

I pulled into Christ Church while the sun was still asleep. With my Bible and coffee in hand, I quickly found a seat. As God’s word was opened, I quickly began to see my need. I have a circumstance that I have been wrestling with for some time, and this morning it was right before me. My need in this situation is great before the Lord.

My heart was stirred by the command in Psalm 18, “Call upon the Lord, who is worthy to be praised, and I am saved from my enemies.” I needed to get real with God!  I needed to lift up my voice, audibly out to God.  I needed to go ahead and pour out to God ugly, honest, authentic need to Jesus in prayer – out loud!  I didn’t need to think about my situation before God.  I needed to have a heart to heart, gut-wrenching conversation.

On my way home,  I encountered the Lord as I thought about the observations on Biblical prayer that Kathy had shared from the Psalm.  With tears spilling down my face, I opened my mouth and attempted to pray out loud in my car.  I managed to whisper a prayer to the Lord. A lump formed in my throat as I began to tell the Lord my deep need for Him.  The words began to tumble more freely out of my mouth. I spilled out the details and the pain of my situation, exposing a deep place in my heart before my heavenly Father.

As I drove, the sun began to rise into what looked like a painted blue sky that was interspersed with feathered orange and rosy clouds. God was using the rising sun as a picture of what was happening inside of me.

By stuffing and ignoring my need for such a long time, it was like I was waking up every day while it was still dark outside. I was stumbling around, tripping over my feelings because I couldn’t see where I was going. I was trying to walk in the dark.  But as God’s word was opened to me Tuesday morning, I began to see the light; I saw the reality of my situation. Although I am carrying a tremendous burden and have great need, I don’t have to stay “needy!”  When I really take all my screaming pain, raw emotions, confusing questions and deepest longings to my God, He comes!

Psalm 18 dramatically describes how the conquering King listens to my every cry and comes to “rescue me from my powerful enemy!”  He “confronts me in the day of my distress…He lights my lamp.”  Prompted by His word, my heart spilled over into a flow of prayer. As I cried out and meditated on God’s word, Jesus began to wash away my blindness and carry my pain. My Creator was using the power of the literal sunrise to show me a picture of His internal miracle in my heart!

As I prayed this morning, I found Jesus to be my strength. My heart began to align with the truth of God’s word, “This God—his way is perfect.” My heart is safe with Him. I could say over my situation, “The word of the Lord proves true; He is a shield for all those who take refuge in Him” (Psalm 18:30).

I can (and I do) cry out to my God, “For it is you who light my lamp; The Lord my God lightens my darkness” (Psalm 18:28).

As God brought light I felt a new song rising in my heart. Instead of tears, I felt joy. Instead of despair, I had a song of praise to sing to God. His salvation is great and His steadfast love is amazing.

Friends, God met with us Tuesday morning at Alive at Five! He brought victory and answered us when we cried out to Him. If you have a testimony from Tuesday I would love to hear it. Feel free to leave a comment or email me. I can’t wait to see you again on the 19th!

Fully Alive at Five Info:

When: Every other Tuesday morning. See full calendar here.

Time: 5:00a.m.- 7:00a.m.

Where: Christ Church of Knoxville (Click here for a map)

Follow us: on Facebook and on Twitter!